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This is LGBT Stories - We are dreamers, students, teachers, authors, drag queens, we’re spiritual, religious believers, black, white, brown, male, female, and everything in-between. The one thing that we all have in common is that we are LGBTQ. We are gathering a collection of stories inspired by the LGBTQ community and bringing these stories to the forefront of society. Through storytelling, we’re creating a space for other LGBTQ people to seek comfort and refuge from being unseen to living OUT and PROUD!
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Nov 30, 2019
Hi everyone! Just stopping by to keep you updated. This is a quick little episode.
 
Starting next Tuesday, December 2nd, 2019 we are going to be kicking off our Best of Series! As we are in this time of hiatus from releasing new episodes, it provides us a wonderful chance to reflect on some of the episodes that have helped us reach the place we are at today. I am excited for you those of you who haven't gotten the chance to hear some of our very first episodes to hear the inspiring stories that our guests like, Ryan Heller, Jen Winslow, Natalie Wood, and so many more have shared with us. The stories of addiction, transformations, and self-identity that they have shared is the true embodiment of LGBT Stories!
 
So, if you'd like to jump back there now and check those episodes out, be my guest. Or you can play along and take a listen every Tuesday for the next 9 weeks to some of the top episodes we've produced on this show. Be sure to tune back in on Tuesday, December 2nd!
 
I also want to thank those of you who have answered my call for donations, reviews, and ratings! It is amazing how much yall come together in times of great need. I'd like to read this review that was posted on iTunes on Thanksgiving. 
 
Thank you, everyone, who donates to this show. If you would like to donate anything as little as a few dollars to something more substantial like $100 or more you may do so at our website www.ourlgbtstories.com There you may set up a one time or a recurring donation that is all managed through PayPal. If you're out of the United States don't worry, PayPal should be able to convert everything over for you!
 
And lastly, we'd love to have you on the show! If you would like to share a coming out story, a story of transformation in away way, or anything else significant, heartwarming, tragic, or the like in regards to LGBTQ culture please email me at admin@ourlgbtstories.com.
 
I hope you are all having a wonderful holiday season! Peace out!
Nov 28, 2019

2019 has been a year filled with so much to be grateful for! This episode is dedicated to that!

 

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Nov 18, 2019

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Time For A Hiatus - Last Episode Ft. Michael Osborne

 

re·new·al: the replacing or repair of something that is worn out, run-down, or broken.

Friends: Its time for a hiatus. This year, LGBT Stories has grown more than I possibly could have known would happen. We started out slow, not producing many episodes, and had a goal of reaching 100k downloads. I didn't really see how that would happen, so it became nice to think about but didn't seem really realistic.

Earlier this year I was having a conversation with a friend of mine, Mike, about the number of downloads the show had, it was just above 40k downloads, 44k to be exact. The conversation was me basically whining about how I wished it had been higher. Mike looked at me and said, "Kevin, don't think about it like that. Think about it as that being 44k people who have listened to your show". That's when it all hit me. That number is huge. 44k people. 44k downloads. Something in that gave me the drive to keep going and to keep going harder. As you all know, I went on this year to producer a total of 3 episodes a week. 12 a month. That is no easy fleet. There are many nights that I haven't slept because I was recording or editing. Then in the morning, I would go out to drive for Uber and try to make some sort of living in-between acting jobs. Starving actor is a real thing.

So now its November 18th, 2019, and LGBT Stories has, 130k downloads. That goal of 100k was not only met; it was crushed! And the year isn't even over yet!

So whats next? Well, it's all going, to begin with, renewal. Am I worn out? Yes. Am I run-down? Yes. Am I broken? Hell no. Could I use a break to reflect internally, outwardly, spiritually? Sure could. Social media, and overnights recording and editing do not help with.

Today will be the last NEW episode of LGBT Stories until February 2020. Don't worry, new pre-recorded episodes will still be pumped into your feeds. We will be using this time to do something I've wanted to do for some time now. From November 26th to January 28th, we will be doing a Best Of series.

There have been so many episodes of LGBT Stories that have really shaped what this show is all about. New listeners, I feel missed out on this. And I know that you can always go back and listen on your own time, but I feel like some of these really need to be highlighted as they are stories that have touched so many people over the years.

Then on February 4th, 2020, I hope yall are ready for more content... I'm talking podcast episodes, a new streaming platform that we are partnering with, live streams, and it's finally time that LGBT Stories really starts a YouTube presence. So, thank you, everyone, who has donated your money or time to this show. Thank you, Kate Mays, for giving so much to LGBT Stories in the work you've been doing with FKF episodes. They're fun, and we need fun in our lives.

Okay, let's chat a bit about what you're going to hear today! The last full-length story of 2019 on LGBT Stories! Years ago, I used to work at The Apple Store here in Los Angeles. I met a man named Michael Osborne. We were never super close at the store just because we fell into different shifts and cliques, so to say. There were A LOT of employees! Anyway, I do follow Michael on Instagram and noticed (like the rest of his followers) that he is a really talented artist. I had no idea. Michael draws tasteful, lifestyle art, of men in the nude. It's pretty awesome. Today Michael is going to tell you the story of how this has changed his life and how renewing the childhood self in him lifted his depression.

In a season of renewal, I think this is an excellent episode to end the year on. I encourage you this Holiday season to search for the truth of it all. Not what the commercial industry is trying to sell you. Look more in-depth at the meaning and truth it was all founded on. Get renewed. Renew your spirit.

 

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Nov 15, 2019

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Nov 13, 2019
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Today we pick back up, on this journey of mine with me telling you a more about my first ever sorta real relationship with a man. Well, for me, at least it was real. The joy, excitement, fantasy, sadness, pain, and sorrow all were as real as they could get. I was a young, not even 20-year-old boy at the time, who thought he found the love of his life. Lord, was I wrong.
 
As I mentioned in last week's episode, Travis (who's name isn't really Travis) and I met via the website, craigslist.com. The first day that we met, we had sex (which was also the first time I ever had anal sex with anyone).  If you would like to hear more about that, I implore you to go listen to last week's episode "Me. #3". Okay, moving on...
 
I think it's safe to say that just about everyone, no matter their sexual orientation or gender identity falls hard for the first person that they have sex with. And that's what happened to me. Looking back, it is clear that Travis and I had two very different agendas.
 
See, he was so hot and cold. One day he wanted me over for a hot piece of ass, and the next, he would act like he didn't even know me, or more like, I was a bother to him. Meanwhile, here I am, all nieve just wanting to get married and run off into the sunset. I think the power dynamic in age was a major factor in all this.
 
The friendship/relationship continued into something where I knew what to expect. When Travis called, I would go running. Why, because I was "in love." Kids, this isn't, love. This is a childhood infatuation. I am not saying that the things I was feeling at the time were not valid and did not feel real, because they were, and did. But it wasn't at all, love.
 
Love is feeling completely and utterly supported. It's feeling valued and respected. Love is when you know that you can show up as you are to a relationship, and your partner encourages you to be just that, and even wants more of that from you. Love is in the moments of difficulty when things get hard, and you're not shamed for your feelings, but embraced for having feelings and living in the honesty of them. Love is peaceful. It is looking into someone's eyes when you speak to them, desiring their intimacy. Love is, unknowing - yet willing. Love is unconditional.
 
What I had with Travis was not... love.
 
He and I would start to spend more time together. We went from spending time only in his house to random outings, sometimes stopping by his work for coffee (he worked at Starbucks). Ew... is this some unconscious reason for my infatuation with Starbucks? Yeah, another thing I need to look at. Maryland isn't all that amazing when you're that age, but then again, where, in America, is. We would go shopping at Target or out to lunch, simple things. There was a time when we were driving in his car, he had a Saturn Vue (kids the company went under, oh the foreshadowing imagery).
 
I finally got the nerve to hold his hand. It probably took everything in me. Remember, at this point, I'm really nothing more than a side piece. But the fact that we were hanging out in public more started to make me feel like maybe he was actually into me? So we are sitting there, he is driving, I'm in the passenger seat, and I reach over to grab his hand, and when mine touches his, he pulls away and says, "Kevin, no." I was so embarrassed. But I did what I did so well. I stayed small and said, "Okay," and went on like it didn't bother me. But it did. His constant toying with my heart, pulling me in, and pushing me away really was breaking me inside. But, little Kevin, he just wanted to be loved. All he wanted was to feel love. So I put a smile back on my face and went about the day together. 
 
Here is where things take a major turn for Travis and me. One day I get a call from him asking me if I wanted to go to an old military fort that is in Baltimore. It's no longer used, but it a historical land that people go and visit. You can't grow up in Maryland (one of the first 13 colonies) and not be a patriot. Of course, I said yes and headed over to his house. We jump in his car and head out for the day. Something was so different. Like really different. Travis was warmer, kinder, all around, more interested in me. On the way there, he grabbed and held my hand. WHAT! Wait a minute, what is happening? The man whom I have been drooling over and fucking for how many months now; was actually holding my hand; as we are on our way out to cute day adventure? OMG, I can finally die now... but not really cause I want more.
 
Okay, so we get there right. We park and start walking around, looking at the ruins and etc. Actually, it was pretty cool, old cannons, and jail cells. It was something out of a history book. Then literally, the best moment of my entire life up until this point happens. And any LGBTQ person will most likely agree with me. We decide to sit down on this small hill out in the open. Its a beautiful summer day in Maryland to which made it all so much better. I sit down, and Travis comes up from behind me and sort gets on his knees and then wraps his arms around me, just holding me. Holy shit... every fiber of my body is going crazy. For the first time in my life, I am living in my truth OUT IN PUBLIC. And I didn't care who saw. All that matter was that moment of pure bliss. Then, he gets up and says, "Let's go." Boom, that was it. It was all over. From there, I believe we stopped at McDonald's and got lunch, and honestly, I don't remember the rest of the day. This was the last time I remember being intimate with Travis.
 
Travis got cold again. Calls were not as frequent, and I do think that as that behavior surfaced again, I got tired of the back and forth. I have to be honest, I am not really the type of person that lets things go. Well, at 33, I am much more willing to now in life, but at that time, not so much. Maybe it was just life letting me know things with Travis, and I was over. It was then that things with my church were falling apart and that I end up moving to Pennsylvania. As I mentioned before, being me being in PA and him being in MD was just too much to maintain. So, we feel apart, and I didn't hear from him again until I contacted him in my mid-twenties.
 
And that's it for this week. Next week, I'll pick back up in Florida. A place where I was finally a 100% out gay man living on his own, doing whatever he wanted. Sound fun, right? Well, don't be fooled. I was young. And dumb. To be continued.
 

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Nov 9, 2019

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Nov 6, 2019

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Last week I shared with you all about what it was like for me to come out or be outed, I should say, at the church I had been attending. I shared with you the stares that I received from people who I called "Family" and how I attended "Self-confrontation" classes to "confront" my gayness.

I also began talking a bit about my move to Pennsylvania. We will get more into that today, for sure.

However, I'd like to briefly discuss something about church and homosexuality. As I listened back to last week's episode, preparing for today's, I felt as though I left things on a difficult note regarding the intersection of homosexuality and Christianity. And honestly, after sharing what I went through, one might say that I was justified... I mean, it's my experience, right? Yes. But, that's not who I am today, and it might not even be who that church is today. I have no idea. I don't attend that church anymore, obviously. How would I know if they've changed? All I can hope for it that God has shown them how He loves all his creation, no matter their orientation. It's apparent that the entire experience is still hard on my heart; otherwise, why would I have left it like such. Maybe that's something I should start looking at again.

The Christian church has its problems, yes, but I can say that my experience with it today is vastly different than it has ever been. Today I am part of a church in Hollywood called Ecclesia and have never felt so loved and supported for the person I am, just as I am. But more of that to come in the next coming weeks. I simply thought it'd be nice for me to circle back around and make note that I am a believer, still. Some churches just miss the mark, and others, like Ecclesia, are much closer to the mission of Jesus than others.

Okay, let's get back to the story of Me.

Here I am, in York County, PA. In the city of Dover. I'm talking cornfields and, small-town USA. What the hell was my mom thinking? I knew NO ONE! Well, my cousin, Vincent, and his family were already living there, but STILL. Really PA? Okay, deep breath, I can do this. First things first, find a job. If it was 2019, I'm sure my first action would have been more like, First things first, pull out iPhone, open up Grindr. But I digress.

I ended up landing at a job at a local steak house called, Texas Road House as a "Busboy". Long story short, I lasted there I believe the most 2 weeks before I simply could not deal anymore. Again, here I am, in a place of utter uncomfortably. I can just tell that I stick out like a sore thumb. I just wasn't vibing.

Meanwhile, in my off time, I can remember going to a few local bars with my cousin and his friends. It wasn't so bad, but I don't know; it just wasn't my thing. Honestly, I don't even know how we got in, I wasn't even 21 yet. Even at 33 years old, I don't go out and party. Partly due to the fact that I am so damn busy, but hey, aren't we all?

And to make matters worse, I knew not one other gay person. Not one! It was like I was starting all over. The guy I first slept with and fell hard for a few years prior was back in Maryland, and traveling there just was too much. My friends who I would go parting with, in DC and Baltimore, simply fell victim to, out of sight, out of mind. It was all just a sad and lonely time of my life.

I knew that I needed to change my current reality. I couldn't stay here. My older brother, Phil, and his wife Vicky were living in Florida at the time, why don't I go live with them? So I went to my mom and asked her what she thought about it? She said, "Talk to Phil, and if he says 'Yes,' then you can go." And that's what I did and what he said.

I believe a week or two went by before once again; all my belongings were packed into my 2005 VW Jetta, and I was embarking on the 16-hour drive to Sarasota, Florida. Here is where I as a young gay "Twink," started to thrive, or so what I thought was thriving.

But before we leave the Maryland/Pennsylvania territories, I'd like to share with you all the story of my first time with a man.

So let's backtrack. His name was, we will call him, Travis. I was 18 at the time and using craigslist.com for all the wrong reasons! If you know, then you know. I'm certainly not giving any more explanation on that one. One night I meet a guy, Travis, via the site. I head over to his house in Glen Burnie, MD. Cute little neighborhood in a single-family home. He was I believe between 22-24 at the time. He met me outside in my car and told me that we had to be very quiet because his parents were at home in bed.

Lord, so many triggers! Okay, moving on. We get to his room, and I can remember feeling just so envious of his space. He was like an adult! So much stuff and so put together. The intense attraction was inevitable. We talked for a little before doing anything, just all small talk getting to know each other, I guess? I mean, maybe there was some sort of natural connection? Who knows. However, we never ended up doing anything more than me giving his oral sex. I don't remember anything more of that night, other than getting home and knowing that I wanted to be his boyfriend.

As you know, from what I shared about my life already, that didn't happen. This was the beginning of about a friendship/sexual relationship of me giving myself away at his beck and call. It was unhealthy, and I was taken great advantage of. This is a pattern that would continue until my late 20's. Travis was the man who I would go on to have anal sex with for the first time. I'm going on record to say, the first time was one of the most painful experiences of my life. Painful yet, blissful all at the same time. So weird, life... you are weird. But don't get worried boys, Travis simply must have had no idea, or didn't care about what or how he was doing it, because it gets oh so much better. Just educate yourself first! Please, for the sanity for your butthole... educated yourself, your partner, and YOU TAKE THE LEAD! Hey, all you tops out there, the bottom is in control, not you! Again, an entirely different episode for an entirely different time.

Let's end things there. Next week I will share more about mine and Travis sorta relationship and continue on as I move to Florida and meet my first-ever boyfriend!

Till then, thanks for listening. I would love to know what you think about this segment of the show in the comments on iTunes or on social media. Thanks again to everyone who has already told me how much you love it. That means so much to me.

Enjoy the rest of your week, you'll hear from us on Friday for FKF. Until then, be sure to keep loving one another!

 

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Nov 6, 2019

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Hi everyone, today, in place of our regularly scheduled story episode, I would like to spend some time with a few updates about where LGBT Stories is at and where we are going!

I thought it would be lovely to share some of the ratings and reviews LGBT Stories has gotten over the last few weeks on iTunes! Seeing these come through is hugely encouraging. I have to be honest, even though I see the numbers daily of how the podcast is doing, it's easy for me to go to a place of wondering if anyone is even listening. When I see your ratings and comments on iTunes, man, it just fills me up!

If you would like to support us by rating us with a 5-star rating, I would be forever grateful! Simply open the Apple podcast app on your iPhone, search for the show, and scroll down. You'll see the rest from there.

Some of you might wonder what happens with donations? Well, that's a great question. It goes right back into the show. It cost money to host our show on all these different platforms, social media marketing to spread the word of new episodes takes time and money, and it also goes back into getting new merch for yall to win and buy! And that is only a few of the different things that it takes to keep this beast running! This week alone, I spent $250 on audio equipment that I wasn't expecting to spend. But hey! Y'all need excellent sound quality, so its totally worth it! All this to say that your donations are being put to work!

If you'd like to contribute to LGBT Stories by donating or buying some merch, you can easily do that by going to our website at www.ourlgbtstories.com and clicking donate or shop at the top of the screen!

Let's talk about future episodes! As the holidays are coming up, I would love to release special Thanksgiving and Christmas Day episodes! If you or someone you know has a coming-out story of them coming out to their family on Thanksgiving or Christmas day in the past, please email me at admin@ourlgbtstories.com with your contact info! I would love for you or them to tell that story on the show, and we air it on its respective day this holiday season! Don't wait on this... the holidays are closer than you think!

If you don't know, every month, we donate 5% of all profits made on merch sales to a non-profit voted on by the LGBT Stories community. This is how it works. On the first of the month, I post a Facebook poll in the private LGBT Stories group with choices of who you would like us to make the donation to. Once a day or two has passed, the org with the most votes wins and will receive the donation on behalf of all of you.

So, this month, the winner is "The Trevor Project." That means that if you purchase any of our merch from our website, 5% of our profit will be donated to The Trevor Project! Amazing right!

The last thing I want to share with you all is our weekly giveaway! Every week we want to give away a free merch item to one of our listeners! And we are making it really easy to win! Simply go to our IG and like the latest photo from that week promoting the week's giveaway! You must follow us, like the photo, and tag two of your friends in the comments to be eligible to win! It's that simple. The winner will be chosen every Saturday!

Well, that's it, everyone! I hope you enjoyed all the updates! Looking forward to tomorrow's "Me." episode as we continue going on the journey of my life. Thanks to all of you who have been so supportive and encouraging as I share my personal story on the show.

Always remember, keep loving one another.

 

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Nov 2, 2019

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